| the stupidest things and the stupidest people |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|06:16 pm] |
Ugh i hate stupid people i swear to god my school is full of them i tend to ignor them but i some point in the hall way ill yell at one but who cares cause it goes to show im stupid as well, but no some people have to fucking grow up as sad as that sounds nothing good comes from my school, the teaching is crap the teachers ithier then my art teacher is crap and i tend to do crapy things cause its carp. I talked to my cousin timothy due to the fact hes going out with the worlds biggest skank witch i tottaly tryed to put a stop to but no dose he listen NO!!!!! k when a girl calls you 24/7 for a ride and for cash dosent that seem just abit like using the person i think soo "dont you"?,ugh i also talked to the skank as well and guess what she started yelling at me why because i want the best for my cousin hes my family and i tend to look out for those in need, just like i would do for any of my friends.Today was a good day luara cheered me up i was having a totally bummed day but during lunch and math she got a big smile on my face and luara if your reading this THANKS!!!.I went out side like 30 minutes ago right after my nice hot shower and guess what i think im sick now its bad enough im sick of so many things but me getting sick while sick of things isnt good for the health last i herd.Im in a relationship right now and i though it was like the best thing ever but im starting to feel something,something i never new was inside of me,this relationship might not be for me like you know how i said i had the whole by thing going on well wrongo i dont think i do and well thank god for that but yeah bad feelings tend to be the right thing.well im going to stop here cause well this is what happened all day and wow my life is boring.
p.s-i have a seceret crush on the SPICE GIRLS shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! |
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| Stupid Skanks |
[Nov. 28th, 2005|10:57 pm] |
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ok soo im having abit of a problem and im in an emo rage right now sooo me typing this isnt going to be really easy soo bare with me please. Sooo lets start of with her name Natasha, evil ugly skankish bitch in the biggest world,she likes me cousin and me and everyone disaprove of her, and now cause of her shes going to rewin my cousins relationship between me and him and i love the dude to death i was raised with him and now shes destroying everything i dont mind this all becuase i swear im going to destroy her from inside out, and ill make sure ill watch her die right in front of my eyes. the hole fact is that my cousin can do way better and deserves something good,cause they say there isnt such thing as a perffect man but hes the kindest person youll meet. my cousin tracy disapproves of her as well and im glad because the more people i have to back the better the chance of her never seeing him again.Theres soo much crap going around in this world why not just destroy her and get rid of one problem. |
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| Why cant i find happeness with in me!! |
[Nov. 27th, 2005|05:53 pm] |
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Today is the first time i have ever written in her and well to be honest with you i dont no why i have this,ithier then the express my emotions and feelings witch right now are going everywhere. Yesterday i got my cast off due to an accident i had 4 weeks ago where i broke my wrist in two but its ok as long as it didnt break my heart like alot of people have done.My arm feels naked right now and very lonely but its alright life goes on what can we do.My love life write now is crap, to many people at one time and well i only have my mind set on one of them but she said now and im not heart broken i just no that fact is that shes not going out with me is because im bisexual on of the things i most hate about myself and have no control over it cause its a part of me, i can remeber being bi since good noes when, at the age of 4 i was rape and it still feels like it happened yesterday, the man who did it was my babbysitters husband and while she would fall asleep sometimes was when he would do things unwanted and me as a 4 year old couldnt fight back.Then as time went by i saw less and less of him until this year and all those horrible memories are coming back and there really putting me down witch im starting to worry about my health and what will become of me. in garde 5-8 i was over weight i used to be 200 pound and now im 143 im starting to wonder if im sick or something theres not explantion for all this weight to just disaper even thew i have been working out and i eat but yeah.My parents think im doing drugs and well i havent even touched anything ithier then weed but please who dosent smoke that kind of stuff now a days. They have really been hitting me hard and when i mean hitting i dont mean spanking or anything like that i mean ignoring me they never have there attention on me only when they have something negative to say about me and its hard for me to understand why im not wanted why couldnt they just of left me there at that foster home, but noooo they couldnt and now every single day i have to hear about how much money they spent and this and that but well if they were smart parents they wouldnt abuse there daughter and scare there son, sooo yeah they took parenting classes and that worked out but now that im getting older there getting i dont nooo wierder and im starting to wonder if im better off dead, i used to un popluar in grade 9 i barely talked to anyone but now im just open and its random, and well for a matter of fact im random period. I have awsome friends people that understand me that can relate and be just there for me,and then there are those who hate me, alot of guys in my school dislike me cause they think im fucking tutty fruity and well im not, im not a flammer soo just for once keep your mouth shut, well im going to keep this short now and hope to hear from some of use that go threw the same thing i go too well i hope you all enjoy your day. bye |
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